So I left my bag on the bus the other day. It had $130 sketchers shoes inside. You can probably guess what I'm feeling like right about now. I wanted to stabb something the entire day! I think i also swore more in one hour than i do in a week. So that really pissed me off and it was like the straw that broke the camels back. I tend to bottle things up and this was an excuse for me to let all my fustrations out but it didn't really work i think. Yesterday (the day after i left shoes on the bus) I spent atleast ten minutes curled up in a ball sobbing and screaming and wanting to bleed, so that i would have some physical wound to show how i was feeling inside. Felt like i had been stabbed a couple times in the stomach.

I'm not after sympathy. I'm not writing this so that I can have people say something nice to me. I don't really want it. I may feel like shit but I still know that there are hundreds of thousands more who are worse off them me. So save your sympathy for those who really need it. This is just me writing to let stuff out. If I had a diary then i'd be writing this in there but this DA Journal is the only thing I've got.

God I'm sick of this shit!
Hakkai out-